So I had been journaling a little and putting it on my facebook but now that I have this blog spot, I thought I would add some old entries from my journal. This one is about our last year and its horrible crazy twists and turns so I thought I would add this one for sure. It was dated September 9th...one year to the day since Scott's stroke. So here it is:
So I've been waiting for this day for a whole year! I have no idea why I wanted the year "mark" to come and go. I guess maybe to put closure on this crazy thing that has happened to us. I know in some of your minds, maybe this was just our "blip" but to us it was life changing. One year ago today, I could not wake Scott up and it was the scariest day of my life. Up to that point, I had never even called 911. For a whole week I sat in agony wondering whether or not he would ever talk to me again (literally and mentally). Now one year later, sometimes I wish he would just SHUT UP! Hahaha. I really thought today, September 9th would be a sad day and that I would sit around and be morbidly depressed as I thought about why this had to happen to us. But to be honest, it's not like that at all. I'm happy! I can't stop smiling at the fact that Scott is okay and my family is healthy (for the most part). I'm estatic he survived what he did. And the things that we have gone through this last year...it's amazing! We even added another one to our family and now we're 6! It's been a crazy ride and I'm just glad to say it's all just a distant memory now. One of the most important things that I took from this (besides hundreds of other things), is that life is very precious and can be over in the blink of an eye. The things I said that day could never be taken back and so when I talk I choose my words wisely. I never want to be in that position again EVER! One more thing I took from all of this is that the support of my friends and family was untouchable. I'm speechless when it comes to how I feel about what everyone did for us. So today we can hold our heads up high and say with pride WE ARE SURVIVORS!